I am so confused! I am on the next hole on my belt! But my weight isn't changing. I weighed in this morning at 202, That is up 4lbs from last weigh in. But I am tightening my belt! Weird huh? I asked my husband if belts can stretch. He laughed! I guess I should be happy right? Why is that number so freaking important. I am stressing over the fact that I am shrinking but the number on the scale is not! I am almost in a size 14, and am not enjoying it (well, I am a little bit) I hate the whole body image, weight crap!
On another note...
I went to the eye doctor yesterday to have my eyes checked and get a new prescription for glasses (I lost mine) and all morning I had the thought of "oh, man I hope they don't see signs of diabetes in my eyes." I was nervous because I know that I haven't exactly been doing really well with my eating and exercise. So I asked them to do the diabetes check. The doctor did and said he sees no signs of diabetes in my eyes, that in fact had I not said anything he would not have known I was diabetic. That is really good news because the eyes usually show it first.
Then stupid me being relieved over that thought, I started thinking darn had he said that there was a sign It might have pushed me to do better. I am such an idiot, just do better so that there never is a sign should be my thoughts, right?
I need to lose 50lbs. Some of you have already lost over half of that. It looks so easy for you guys, while it seems so flipping hard for me.
Summer starts for me, because I am a mom of school aged children, on the 30th of May. I will have no excuses of not going to the gym because I will have my older children to watch the little one for the hour and a half it takes! I am actually a little excited about that. I like to exercise. It gives me renewed energy for the day, it helps me feel better about life and keep a tidier house. Weird how it affects everything in your life.
Anyway enough of my rambling!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Confused
Posted by Carrie at 8:35 AM
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Congrats on the belt loop moving! :o) And it's great to hear that the diabetes is not effecting your vision. Just wanted to let you know that I KNOW you can do it!!! If someone had told me 4 and a 1/2 months ago that I would have lost over forty pounds by now I would have thought they were out of their minds! But it's doable... it just takes a little hard work and a WHOLE LOTTA SELF CONTROL!!! Go for it Carrie! :o)
That is confusing... but tightening your belt is always a good thing... so smile about that and just keep pushing forward.
I agree with Karilynn. you should just go for it. Her post today was great. She says that this time she wasn't just "trying" she DID IT. It makes all the difference. You can "try" to lose weight, but trying comes with excuses and buts. DOING IT is just that. You just say "I'm going to DO IT" and DO IT! Time will go by no matter what and wouldn't it be great to be 4 months from now and say "wow, I've lost xx amount of weight"?! You CAN do it Carrie. You just have to do it.
Carrie, I think it's great that your belt is shrinking. I think you must have gained muscle in there somewhere, which is making you burn more calories throughout the day. I'm proud of the accomplishments you have made. And I'm excited for you that the diabetes is not showing up in your eyes. Keep up the good work!
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