what is your REAL reason or purpose is for losing weight?

I have type 2 Diabetes that I'm sadly ignoring right now, because it scares me and it is silent! I have the bury your head in the sand syndrome! I feel like that if I lose the weight and get active just as silently then they will cancel each other out. I know, I know this isn't the way to do things. But right now this is my way of dealing with this. I know that I have to lose this weight or I will have so many complications in my life that I wont see my children become all that they are supposed to be. And I will not be able to spend the rest of my life with my best friend/Husband. He will have to spend it alone. I am also vain, I want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to think that others think I look good in the clothes I am wearing. I want to run with my kids. I want to be able to go shopping with my daughters at the regular stores not at the fat stores. I want my daughters to develop the healthy outlook instead of the fat outlook. I want my kids to be proud of their mom for her persistence not just for making lunches and coloring with them. I want them to see me set a goal and accomplish that goal, so that when they have something hard in their lives that they can have an example. I guess I could go on and on but I'll stop here, I think you all get the picture.